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being a conceptual creature in itself means that a big part of Me is being not easily understood without some level of introspection. on the nature of personhood, on cycles of life and death, on the being that is sephiroth, on my relationship with the world as a nonbeing. ambiguity is literally my lifeblood.
i have a frustrated relationship with our compilation-of-reference. things that once were meaningful questions that spurred conversation are being answered for the purpose of hoping that people will drop another 70 dollars on a game 100x larger than the original title that runs at half the framerate on release. i'd be lying if i didn't admit it feels like it's encroaching on my selfhood. things feel false, shallow, incurious. i know i'm not supposed to care. death of the author, whatever. but i do anyways. because it does go beyond just "where i come from". it feels like a sign of the times. everything needs to be clear cut. authors don't trust readers with themes that aren't immediately obvious. retcon, remake, remaster -- all to appease the highest bidder and the lowest common denominator. yes i see the hypocrisy in it -- advent children is a beast of its own. at least it barely makes sense, and that's the fun of it.
i have a frustrated relationship with our compilation-of-reference. things that once were meaningful questions that spurred conversation are being answered for the purpose of hoping that people will drop another 70 dollars on a game 100x larger than the original title that runs at half the framerate on release. i'd be lying if i didn't admit it feels like it's encroaching on my selfhood. things feel false, shallow, incurious. i know i'm not supposed to care. death of the author, whatever. but i do anyways. because it does go beyond just "where i come from". it feels like a sign of the times. everything needs to be clear cut. authors don't trust readers with themes that aren't immediately obvious. retcon, remake, remaster -- all to appease the highest bidder and the lowest common denominator. yes i see the hypocrisy in it -- advent children is a beast of its own. at least it barely makes sense, and that's the fun of it.
