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Is your conceptuality distinct from your other alterhuman identities? If not, how do they influence each other?
yaz: it is extremely intertwined. i've surmised over the past few days that if someone tried separating us from the concept we might just straight up die. seems a bit extreme now that i'm seeing it typed out but i'll stand by that.
loz: i don't know about die, but it would definitely remove a lot of things from the picture. we were created in tandem for a specific purpose, and part of that purpose was to balance and enhance the other. so the duality-concept is built into the foundation of our being. removing the duality would mean disintegrating something huge and rewriting our existence itself.
yaz: yeah... part of why we don't participate in the idea of "moving on" from past lives/certain personality aspects from "then" is because that would require completely restructuring who we are in a way that is just like. okay. might as well be someone else, then. i don't get to separate from being a created-being with specific inbuilt aspects any more than i get to separate from any other non-negotiable part of our reality. of course we work with what we have here, but one thing that can't be worked with is the concepts that underline who and what we are. as much as i love my ambiguity, there are some things that are pretty unambiguous at this point.
How does conceptuality feel compared to non-conceptual identities?
yaz: it's definitely way harder to describe. i can very easily say "i'm yazoo", but explaining how i'm part of a synergized life-and-death cycle involving twins is. slightly more abstract. that and i'm always yazoo, day in and day out. it's the concept part that shifts. sometimes i'm the death-half, other times i'm procyon to loz's sirius, and later in the same day i'm embodying the idea that surrounds a character like mohg.
loz: it's also just buried beneath a so many layers. i'm loz; beneath that, i'm the twin concept; beneath that, i'm the duality concept. and under that umbrella is everything else -- the individual characters and objects and creatures. it's less obvious, i'm not "literally" part of an orbiting black hole duo, or a binary star system. it's not really connected to any action either, like how being queer is tied to how i relate to others and express myself.
yaz: to be clear, its not an "identify-with" scenario either. we are the concepts, just not necessarily the things beneath the concepts. its about the idea, not the object itself. i'm not mohg. don't call me mohg. as much as i love him and think everything should be about him.
loz: speaking of elden ring, i've been thinking a lot about libra, and how it is a great way to get at what our deal is. there is so much going on with that critter that is lozyaz coded. it's a baphomet expy, it seeks to embody a perfect balance of madness and reason, and you see that through its actions in battle. which. heehee. My Awesome Segue.
How do you embody your concepttype, if at all? How do you embody your concepttype in day to day life, in small ways?
loz: in the past it was often centered on combat. being living weapons and whatnot. nowadays it's more subtle. this is definitely where i can say things have changed. the forever back and forth internal conversations, playing off of each other's moods, crafting worlds where we take these seemingly opposing aspects and make them collide.
yaz: complaining about XOR bullshit.
loz: complaining about XOR bullshit...
yaz: differentiating between balance and binarism. the difference is subtle but measurable. going back to the life-and-death thing, i was thinking about how we have an odd relationship to death. not just loz&kadaj&i but syzygy as a whole. a lot of syzygy would say the body and self have died three times now, the most recent being in 2021(which -- funnily enough -- coincided with kadaj's arrival). so we would never say death is the opposite of life, or that death and life are exclusive concepts. they feed off of each other, they keep things in balance without being the only two options. again this is another non-negotiable. if these two concepts were complete opposites, we would not exist. if they were the same thing, we also would not exist. what the hell am i saying. does this even mean anything
loz: it does to me :-)
yaz: sometimes things have to be separate in order to exist, but also, that doesn't mean there isn't overlap or room for expansion. i think that's a great way to summarize how we move through the world. there's these two things, they work together, sometimes they appear the same, sometimes they're drastically different.
loz: i have to constantly measure things on a "both and" scale. if i don't i will actually go batshit. there needs to be other options. and if there aren't i'll just start negating shit to give myself more options until i find something that works. #MyNegation
yaz: i mean i don't really know how to talk about "identity in general" that isn't alterhumanity. maybe i'm dumb and tired but our identity is generally summed up by alterhumanity. everything from gender and disability and race are wrapped up in there.
